Balancing The Scales

Today has me thinking a lot about the balance of life and death. I am expecting my first grandson in January (December 22 if I have my way!!) and I am also facing the death of a loved one at the same time. It is funny how the scales seem to even out sometimes. One life given, another taken. I have noticed this often in my life. Death following birth, birth on the heels of grief to remind us all of how precious our time here really is and to soothe our aching souls some small measure. Life and death are all about balance it seems. The dark and the light. How is it we manage to smile at a funeral and cry at a birth for those who have passed on and cannot be here to experience these blessed events. Once again, the balance remains. I remember when I was pregnant with my first child and I had what I consider a delayed grief reaction and cried until I could cry no more. I was so overly emotional that my grandmother, whom, at that point in time had been gone for 5 years, was not going to be there to see me be a mother, to hold my baby in her arms and look down into her face with the pride and joy only a grandmother can show. I also remember when I delivered that child, hearing my grandmother's voice, telling me how beautiful she was and how proud I had made her. Maybe it was caused by exhaustion, maybe the medications they gave me, maybe it was just an emotional overload..but no matter the source what I heard comforted me, soothed my very soul. Now I am seeing the scales righting themselves once again in my life and it gives me peace to know that for every pain there is a balm. I will be heartbroken when I am finally faced with the loss that is to come but I will find solace in my grandson, in my belief that this life here is but one piece of an eternal whole and that those we miss and love are really just a thought, a heartbeat away from us. Blessed Be everyone.