Three days ago I made a decision. I was going to give myself ninety days of devotion. In this time I was going to concentrate on making myself healthy in every aspect of my being. To attend to my physical health I started a work out program with my husband that, at this moment in time, has my fibromyalgia and endometriosis trying desperately to convince my brain that I am not healing myself but hurting myself. In time, I will convince it that this is simply not the case and that I am actually making it stronger and healthier. Aside from that I am also trying to be more conscious about fueling my body better by drinking more water and eating healthier foods during the day. This has always been a task for me. If I am not hungry, I don't eat, and so normally I am only eating once a day at the very most, sometimes I eat once every couple of days instead. I am working on this. Drinking more water is also something that has been very difficult for me. I had to drink copious amounts of it when I was pregnant for endless ultrasounds and I developed a gag reflex to the act of drinking it. In the last three days I have went from drinking none, to drinking almost 2 liters. I can overcome this and continue to increase the amounts of water I drink. I have also stopped smoking. This one is probably the hardest for me in the physical health category but, like the other steps I am taking, I am doing it, I can succeed and I will achieve my goals to have overall physical health. As you can see very clearly, I have defined the words I can, I am, and I will. This is part of how I am devoting my energy to my mental health. These simple words have become a litany for me when I am feeling discouraged, frustrated, overwhelmed or simply too tired to continue. I can do this, I am succeeding, I will be victorious in reaching my goal. I gave myself ninety days and already I have accomplished so much in the first three. Perhaps for some my conquests do not seem all that glorious, but for me they have been mountains I have struggled to climb in the past, that I am now slowly but surely scaling with determination. My emotional health is yet another area I am working on healing. This is perhaps the most injured of my aspects. Life has definitely thrown me some hard blows, as it does everyone, but because I did not see my own self worth and because my emotional self was not healthy, I allowed the negativity of the circumstances to define my emotional state. I lost sight of my own ability to heal myself. The first step in this process is forgiveness and I am working on letting go of the past so that I can be happy in the present and look forward to a future where I will be healthy and strong enough to face anything life has to throw my way with grace and poise. This process is not something that happens instantaneously. Even after my ninety days there will still be a lot of work to be done to end up where I see myself being. However these ninety days are enough to become a new foundation to build on. I can be anything I want to be. I am taking steps towards a goal that I have set for myself. I will get there, no matter how many times I may have to ask for directions because I have stumbled off my path. I hope that each and every one of you remembers how truly powerful and remarkable you are. We are all capable of achieving greatness and overcoming the most difficult of situations as long as we remember those simple little words; I can. I am. I will.
Namaste
My sister, I love you - and I am more proud of you than you can possibly know. I want you to remember something that's very important to your success: The moment you make the determination to change negative behaviors, negative forces are going to come into play to challenge that determination. They will take whatever form is necessary, including through the words and actions of loved ones. My encouragement to you is that when you experience those negative forces, recognize them for what they are (challenges to your determination), and then re-state your determination with tenacity and confidence.
ReplyDeleteI believe in you, my sister. I believe in your ability to achieve whatever goals you set for yourself. You are a very strong woman - stronger than you know - and I have no doubt that whatever you decide you truly want, you have the tenacity and the courage to achieve it.
The hardest, most painful challenge is twofold: Accepting that you deserve and are worth true happiness and success, and forgiving yourself for the mistakes you've made in the past. These are, perhaps, the greatest obstacles inherent in any determination to make changes in one's life that are for the better.
I love you, my sister. More than you can know. You CAN achieve your goals. You ARE achieving them. You WILL achieve whatever goal you set your mind to. You have always had the power to effect change in your life; now, you are going to live that. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
You can do this, you will do this, you are doing this.
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